Monday, August 17, 2009

Letting go


I look down at her golden hair
tied neatly back with a pink bow
She cried when I put it in this morning
now all the tears are gone
Her little warm hand in mine
the softness of her palm
I can just hear her faint whisper:
Don't leave me alone here, mom!

Biting her lip she stares at the others,
her deep green eyes darting around
That slight wrinkling of her brow that she
gets when she is worried
A shiver of anticipation and excitement,
her new shoes shuffling gravel on the ground

I bend down and caress her face
drinking in the sweet aroma of my girl
Toothpaste and shampoo
peanut butter and jelly
Closing my eyes I exhale and cradle her
deep into my soul, not wanting to let go
Wait! I'm not ready
Give me another chance to do it again

But she pulls away from my safe arms
and runs toward the stairs
I see her pink backpack bouncing
and my heart leaps
just as she turns and waves
and smiles
and then she is gone...

33 comments:

Jen Sue Wild said...

You made me cry.. Your wrote your feelings so well.

Heather said...

Aww! Thats going to be me next week!!! It's bitter sweet to see them growing up and realize that they no longer need us. Stopping by from SITS!

Kristen said...

Oh. Who told her she could grow up? How is mommy holding up?

Dreamgirl said...

Mommy is doing okay... Tomorrow will be better!

helle - pirettehuset.dk said...

Det var en meget fin beskrivelse af hvordan det føles, når vi endelig slipper vores børn løs (eller lidt i det mindste)og lader skolen overtage vores dyrebareste eje.

Klem Helle

ymK said...

ughh I have a year before mine goes to school, but I have started dreading that day now.
Written beautifully.

Unknown Mami said...

Beautiful!

Amy said...

How sweet is that. I hope she had a great day at school. I think I will totally cry when mine does this.

Amos said...

I am sitting here almost on the eve of Ryan starting kindergarten, and your words have me lost deep in thought. I didn't think I would be sentimental about him starting but it is hitting more and more as the time approaches. It is an exciting new season in our lives, but am I really ready to turn the page? Ready or not, life is turning the page for us. Love you!!

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angelcel said...

This pulled at my heart strings because I remember so well the day my 'babies' went off to school. I think it can sometimes be *more* traumtic for Mum! I hope that today will be a happier day for you both.

Bonjade said...

Oh you made me also cry.......
Your words came right into my heart.
You wrote this so well..... it made me emotional.
Your lovely girl is on her own now.
Take care and a nice day

Nooria said...

Nå kom de igjen, tårene som rant da jeg så min gutt gå opp å ta rektor i hånden i går.

Det er veldig spesielt. Han lå jo i armene mine og smilte med lubne kinn bare for et par dager siden.

Sarah Brown said...

Oh...that day will be here before I blink!=(

jennie.newland said...

That was beautiful! My little guy is 2 and I already dread the day! Hope all goes well with you!

Gibby said...

This brought tears to my eyes. My youngest starts kindergarten next week. I'm sure I'll be a wreck...

Tamara aka Cheapskate Mom said...

Awwwwww dammit! Now I need a Kleenex!

It is SO hard to watch them head off to school at this age. Don't worry in a couple of years you'll be doing a happy dance after their first day!

Thanks for visiting my blog! I am behind on spreading the comment love <3

Gracie said...

Those days for me are well over, but I sure do remember when I had to say..."see ya later".
My middle son cried so hard I couldn't pull my self from the school for an hour.
You'll do well my friend,keep busy:)
See ya later
Gracie

Nora Johnson said...

Many thanks for your great comment & glad you enjoyed my blog! And you're most welcome to join fellow bogpals & me this Thursday when we'll be heading into Marbella & Puerto Banus *virally*! (Not the Swine Flu-type virus but via the internet!!)

Hope you're having a great week too - and look forward to *seeing* you again on Thursday! There'll be nice pics to remind you of Marbella!

xxLOL LOLA:)

One Sassy Girl said...

Precious!! My God she's sweet. Reminds me of my BFF when we were that little. What a cute kid and a great post.

Momma G.Love said...

I am not looking forward to that day. Thankfully, I have a few years until its here.

...stopping by from SITS...

Steph @ Stick It in the Fridge

pleasestickitinthefridge.blogspot.com

Som mine dager er said...

Så vakkert skrevet at det verker i hjertet. Vi har alle vært akkurat der, min kjære venn. Og det er like tøft å være mamma i denne prosessen. Klemmer deg, det er en del av prosessen. Husk - det kommer dager der du har lyst til å brøle, når baderommet er lukket og låst på timesvis ;-)

Kos deg med den store jenta di du.

Klemmeklem.

Marit

M said...

Gratulerer med skolejente!
Du hvor nydelig hun er, og så skjønt du skriver!
Bloggen din er fantastisk stilig!
Klem,M

Samsmama said...

My baby is off to preschool today. I've promised myself I won't be upset. We shall see.

Very lovely and so well written!

Bentley Boutique said...

What a beautiful tribute!! I hope you survived the day. And what a precious little girl!! You must be so proud. On the bright side, parents get to be very involved at school during the early years... lots of class parties and events. It seemed like I lived at the school from kindergarten through about the 3rd or 4th grade.

Michelle said...

You are breaking my heart here.

Nanni said...

Åååå... begynte den lille snella på skolen nå... Hun gjorde jo det, ja... Så rart. Hm.. Tiden går..
Mine fire begynte på´n igjen i dag. To har rykket opp et hakk til ungdomsskole og vgs..
Klem til deg, min venn <3

Hege said...

Nå sitter jeg er og sipper! :)

Utrolig vakkert skrevet - og jeg vet akkurat hva du mener! Selv om man av og til er så adrenalinsint på de små, så er det også veldig godt at de er små - så de er litt avhengig av mamma'n og pappa'n sin.
Sier som rektor på skolen sa - det er to ting vi kan gi barna våre. Røtter og vinger. Og når vingene skal brukes for fullt om noen år, får vi håpe røttene holder!

Fikk tips om bloggen din av Marit (Som mine dager er) og legger deg til på blogglista mi, hvis det er greit?

Ha en fin onsdagskveld!

Klem fra Hege

Helen McGinn said...

Oh my goodness. This made me cry too. I feel for you. *hugs*

BTW, I do have to laugh at the little counter thingy putting me from Bicester, Oxfordshire or from London. It doesn't seem to have Scotland on it's list! *L*

Chrisy said...

Have tears...you've said so well what many of us have felt...it all goes so fast...

Nora Johnson said...

Hi -me again! Just to let you know I've just posted on Marbella & Puerto Banus so if you'd like to join blogpals & me for lunch & shopping, just hop aboard one of the chauffeured cars waiting at my place!

Look forward to *seeing* you again soon!

xxLOL LOLA:)

Hit 40 said...

Adorable!! Wonderful pic to cherish.

Your widget at the top was funny! I was creeped me out for a minute that your blog knew where I was from. Cool!!

Vicki said...

Sweet, sweet post! You said it all perfectly and not a thing I can add. Thanks for sharing. Vicki

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